Currently Listening Everything Goes Numb By Streetlight Manifesto see related

So she wakes up 
In time to brake down 
She left a note up on the dresser 
And she's right on time 
You don't know anything, right or wrong 

I said I know-ow-ow-ow, and she said so-o-o-o 
I want to panic but I've had it so I go-o-o-o 
You don't owe anything to anyone 
But don't take your life 
Cause it's all that you've got 
You'd be better off just up and leaving 
If you don't think they will stop 

And when you wake up 
Everything is gonna be fine 
I guarantee that you wake in a better place, and in a better time 
So you're tired of living 
You feel like you might give in, well don't 
It's not your time 

Flipping through the paper today 
Looking for a specific page 
Don't want to find her full name followed by dates 
Cause when I left her alone, she made a sound like a moan 
"Your known by everyone for everything you've done" 
Fuck buying flowers for grave, 
I'd rather buy you a oneway non-stop to anywhere 
Find anyone, do anything, forget and start again, look 
She said she won't go, it hurts to much, to stand by 
You've got to stop and draw a line 
Everyone here has to choose a side, tonight 
The moment of truth is haunting you 
Don't forget your family regardless of what you choose to do 
You can't decide, and they're all screaming "why won't you?" 
I'll start the engine, but I can't take this ride for you 
I'll draw your bath and I'll load your gun 
But I hope so bad that you'll bathe and hunt 

Annie's tired of forgetting about today and always planning for tomorrow 
(tomorrow) tomorrow Annie says 
"The saddest day I came across was when I learned that life goes on without me" 
(without me) without me Annie says 
"If everyone has someone else and I ain't got nobody's love to save me" 
(to save me) to save me Annie says 
"I think I'll pass away tonight cause it seems I'll never get it right if it's just me" 
(just me) just me Annie says 

And when you wake up 
Everything is gonna be fine 
I guarantee that you'll wake in a better place, in a better time 
So you're tired of living 
You feel like you might give in, well don't 
It's not your time 

Annie says she wouldn't mind if they never find a cure for all her problems 
(her problems) her problems Annie says 
As long as she has someone near to make it clear she does not need to solve them 
(to solve them) to solve them Annie says 
"Oh this loneliness is killing me, it's filling me with anger and resentment," 
(resentment) resentment Annie says, 
"I'm turning into someone that I never thought I'd have to be again" 

And when you wake up 
Everything is gonna be fine 
I guarantee that you'll wake in a better place, in a better time 
So you're tired of living 
You feel like you might give in, well don't 
It's not your time 

Annie's tired of forgetting about today and always planning for tomorrow 
Tomorrow Annie says 
"The saddest I came across was when I learned that life goes on without me 
Without me Annie says 
"If everyone has someone else and I ain't got nobody's love to save me, 
To save me Annie says 
I think I'll pass away tonight cause it seems I'll never get it right if it's just me 
It's just me Annie says 

And when you wake up 
Everything is gonna be fine 
I guarantee that you'll wake in a better place, in a better time 
So you're tired of living 
You feel like you might give in, well don't 
It's not your time 

And even if it was, oh, I wouldn't let you go 
You could run run run run, but I will follow close 
Someday you will say "That's it, that's all" 
But i'll be waiting there with open arms to break your fall 
I know that you think that you are on your own 
But just know that I am here and I'll lead you home 
If you let me she said forget me but I can't 

Ah shit...  I'm old...

I view Halloween in steps...  by age...

Step one...  you literally feel the magic in the air.  The sun sets earlier and you see that     blood red glow over the houses.  Costume... trick or treating...  oh yeah... 

Step two...  adolescent to young adult....  that magic still hangs around, but now it's time to do the devils work.  There are still costumes, but now it's time for sex, drugs and rock n' roll...  If there aren't windows broken and if you aren't crashed out in bed next to some really hot chick and you're both covered in pumpkin guts, something went wrong... 

Step three is what old people do.  Step three is sitting on the couch, in sweats, watching prime time TV or foot ball, or both, handing out candy, and in general hating halloween... 

Guess what I did tonight??? 

Yeah, I'm old.  Like, it was really a great night, by normal night standards...  Great episode of CSI, tasty bowl of chili, a good beer, Val, Seamus and a blanket...  totally awesome...   but not really what I'd call a Halloween...

I'm just getting older... and it's really sinking in...

I need to start a band with lots of satanic refereces... then we wouldn't have an excuse not to get really rowdy, break shit, light things on fire and have a crazy night...

Ya know what my halloween wish would have been... riding all over San Diego in my Camino... Val and I cackling whilst hucking flaming pumpkins out the windows at every Walmart location in town...

or somehow winding up in jail... with Sablan... in costume...  cuz...  ya know it's gonna happen at some point... why not have it be on Halloween... 

I haven't written on here in a long while because I'm tired of reading long winded rants, and I'm tired of reading them, so I've decided to try a new format.  If I can't fit a single topic rant into one or two sentences, it doesn't need to be ranted.  SOooo the outcome will be a bunch of single shot mini-rants, which hopefully will make for more interesting reading for the casual passersby, and lead to MORE OF YOU ASSHOLES COMMENTING! 

Attention Tower Shopper!!!  I've been here for a year, you've been here for five minutes.  I will find your CD, I'm not questioning your intelligence by checking where you've already looked.  Shut up, sit back, let me do my job. 

Computers are smarter than you are.  If I says your CD isn't here, IT'S NOT FUCKIN HERE!!! 

I have a coworker who keeps changing out CDs without asking supervisors, just because he doesn't like other employee selections.  HE IS A POMPOUS FUCKER WHO TRIES TO DICTATE WHAT OTHERS MUST LISTEN TO! 

In fact, I'll expand that last bit into another rant.  I HATE picky people.  Picky eaters, picky movie watchers, picky musical listeners.  I've had to put up with your SHIT for FAR too long.  Go with the flow and try new things.  God forbid you learn something.   

Bruce Willis is awesome, Fuck You if you don't like him. 

Materialism is the bane of all things decent.  People are greedy little fuckers.  Do you know what a diamond ring is?  It's a REALLY expensive glass cutter.  If you really love someone more than you've ever loved blah blah blah, it doesn't matter if you give them $40k finger bling or a $1.50 friendship bracelet.  If anyone EVER demands expensive products of you in place of honest respect and love, promptly decapitate them and fuck their neck stump; be it you parents, spouse, friends or children.  (especially the children, those greedy turd-burglers must be taught early)